Pomegranate Palace

i gonna be crazy for the busy schedule everyday!

---this beginning was wrote here at 20:47:49 2009-10-23

how many times that i had the general idea of the whole dairy and was emotionally to complete it immediately. but due to some unexpected tasks that i delayed the planned speed, or i have to admit its my tardiness that haunted. why am i that undecided!

I attended a JA teamwork the other day which means Junior Achiecement. the organiser invited some employees from a certain top 500 company, and we formed several teams with a member from those employee in each team discussing, practising interviews. we consulted those employees and learnt from their experience.as all in formal suits, the scene looked like really something. each time when someone went to the front to deliver speech, i would lower my head, reflect myself, and feel depressed. im not the kind of people full of words, which puzzled me for really long time. iv talked with several friends about this problem which i think as really serious problem.maybe i exaggerate its seriousness that i give myself too much pressure.i should take some actions to overcome it.

actually till now i forgot many things that i should have written down here.i will do some make ups when i recall the details.

im too busy too tired that i can hardly bear.i miss my mum's cook.i need lots of support.

by the way,i made a clothes for my new sharp~~

this sunday i met david the second.it has been half year since last time i saw him.this cute boy did grow up to some extend,more fluent in chinese more open.we got along well in the short three hours.i just wonder,the next chance to meet him would be a year later~anyway still looking forward to it.

(due to some reasons its not quite clear)

用手机编辑的日志没发送成功

居然也没保存到草稿箱

只是最近心情不好

感觉从来这个学校起没真正看过书

到底是环境变了还是我的心态变了

没有追求没有目标没有动力了么

看来我的伪装能力是又上了一个层次了

每天都是堆满了笑脸跟大家开玩笑

可是只有我自己知道其实不开心

来自好朋友的打击接连不断

一个说查了八字不合

就连普通朋友也算不上了

这都什么年代啊！！！

一个在喝了酒的情况下说了些莫名其妙的话

次日电话来说之前的话只是逗我玩的压根儿就没喝酒

我的两大精神支柱差不多在同一时间崩塌

可是都没有人通知我说最近会那么悲惨

我变得越发迟钝了

甚至于对某些暗示相当不敏感

不能再天真尽管还有人说我是小孩

那天打电话给爸爸

已经将近7点了他还在工作没回家

觉得爸爸好辛苦而我依旧那么不懂事

很久我才会想到给爸爸打电话

以至于每次接到我电话都以为我出什么事了

爸爸说好难得我打电话就觉得很内疚很内疚很内疚

挂了电话我一个人哭了很久

家里就爸爸妈妈一个大屋子

我一个人在家的时候感受过那种空旷是孤独的空旷

而我每次回家都匆匆茫茫的赶回学校

在家呆的时间是越来越少了

每到周末都很羡慕他们本地的同学

这里所谓的美食广场数不胜数

可没有一顿饭能用津津有味来形容

回家妈妈的炒土豆丝就能让我满足好一阵子

所以 以后 要抓住每一个能回家的机会！

现在已经是凌晨01：15

我又熬夜了

幻想过多少次10点半就入睡至今没能实现

对自己说一声 晚安 以后早点睡

我们家羊已经丢了好长一段时间了

真的是杳无音信

我都发布寻羊启示了

都没有人能提供有效信息

我能圈出羊现在出没的区域

只是联系不上

而且不知道为什么羊出走

一声不吭的

把羊弄丢了很担心很难过

在新学校呆了一个月

从陌生到熟悉到慢慢习惯

如此快节奏的生活不是我预想的也不是我喜欢的

开始怀念关校的日子

学校是小却不用每天匆忙地奔波于宿舍和教学楼还要避开马路上的车辆和人群

不管哪个角落都能看到熟悉的面孔

不用担心图书馆的位子被占完了只能坐在信息楼大厅凉冰冰的地上

有什么困难总会有人帮忙（虽然以前经常帮忙的那个人现在可能不会帮我了）

现在的学校人好多可都和我不相干

我只是享受只有我一个人的路上骑着单车吹着风感受这个学校的气息

我开始融入大学

坦然地在选修课上吃东西

不再为回答不出问题感到内疚脸红

为了回家选择性得撒谎逃课

不再为是否要当班委徘徊半天

都看淡了么？

都很难相信自己能释怀到如此程度

忙忙碌碌但不充实

日志搁到一个月才更新

针线活好久没做了萌发灵感的器官都要退化了

照相机里都没有出现过自己的身影了

不想把不开心装在里面

所有人都说我瘦了只有我不想承认

不是刻意要减肥只是看到什么都觉得没胃口

不过吃到妈妈做的土豆丝藕片炒毛豆依旧很心满意足

真的很忙都没时间经常联系朋友

可以感觉到有些只是有些离我越来越远

我想紧紧抓住却发现根本已经够不着

Don't U Walk Away        【我说.好听的】

循环了一整晚的歌                --by Kay B

Don't you walk away when I try to explain to you

You can stand and stare and now do you wanna talk

You can leave if you really don't care at all

I'm sacking thoughts nod at came all so long

Don't you walk away

Let me make things right with you

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It's like you are just playing men because you know that I come ？baby

How can you just let another come between me and you ,honey

You know we walk this wrong along

How could you have given my piece of water saw was only second to me

I'm lying and denying and you know that it's getting to me

You are trying to turn this all around

You are walking on a way

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Ensemble:

Don't you walk away when I try to explain to you （`don't u walk `don't u walk）

You can stand and stare and now do you wanna talk    （say I don't wanna talk）

You can leave if you really don't care at all （u really don't care）

I'm sacking thoughts nod at came all so long

Don't u walk away （don't~~don't~）

Let me make things right with you

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Why do I even seem to bother

That's why I ask myself time and time and time again

Cause I know you bring back what I did in summer

It's been that you like to wit all the games I used to play

But you told me you would soak in and you forgive and you forever But you always go like two way

Just to just to find your actions

You know to walk ？ don't make it better

I'm trying to play all way

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Ensemble:

Don't u walk away when I try to explain to you    （ o~~）

You can stand and stare and now do you wanna talk （I'm trying to tell you play）

You can leave if you really don't care at all

I'm sacking thoughts nod at came all so long (so long)

Don't u walk away (don't u walk,walk away)

Let me make things right with you (let me make it right~o~~baby)

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I have a time talking play   a time for the camption play

No~ not again

I have a time talking play

This time I gonna take a play

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Ensemble:

Don't you walk away when I try to explain to you    (don't you walk away baby)

You can stand and stare and now do you wanna talk (wow~~)

You can leave if you really don't care at all

I'm sacking thoughts nod at came all so long (so so long)

Don't u walk away (don't you walk away )                    

Let me make things right with you

Don't u walk away when I try to explain to you(wow~~)

You can stand and stare and now do you wanna talk

You can leave if you really don't care at all (don't care at all ，at all)

I'm sacking thoughts nod at came all so long

Don't u walk away (don't you walk away)

Let me make things right with you ( you)

一拖再拖的日志今天必须写完

从三十号来到这个新学校

似乎每天都是忙忙碌碌的

这个新环境蛮好

只是诱惑力很大会很花钱

压力会很大怕有点承受不了

我们的三室一厅住了十一个姐妹（先强调一个叫彩霞的同寝的，非本名）

7个上海的6个本校的

不过大家都满和谐的（宿管老师这么叫的，阿姨就阿姨呗还整个老师，老不习惯的）

厅里的电视操作起来有点技术性而且会发出做饭时用压力锅炖东西的声音

不过能和外界沟通上也算不错了

互相熟悉 体检 选课 晃悠 貌似是第一个礼拜的全部内容（没有网 哈哈）

又是检查视力 俺担心的项目

要当着那么多人的面瞎比划太丢人了

于是厚着脸皮上前说俺是高度近视 帮忙写一下得了

就这样体检表上又多了几个字

那个选课更是搞笑

因为没有经验再加上一点小意外有些打算好的选择都没抢到

所幸我和彩霞都很乐观一路笑到底

至于教材

因为本校的有几门课都上过的

他们就打算选择性的订购

谁料到今年学校只支持要么全定要么全不定的政策

我就加入到不定的队伍

大学城里的二手书店可多可方便了

俺们一本一本得搜省了可多票票呢

在这个花钱跟抽纸一样快的地方

省的一分是一分咯

至今俺们上了一个礼拜的课

这儿的老师有点两极分化

优秀的让人相当喜欢差劲的可以把你气死

既来之则安之吧

我和彩霞买了单车没事就瞎转悠

礼拜五晚上原本只是打算去下泰晤士小镇

结果边骑边问在泰晤士小镇绕了一圈

欣赏了仿照的各式建筑

其他的都还没怎么完善

然后去了松江老城

到达的时候已经将近十点了

没怎么逛就返回了

骑了三个多小时穿了several towns

totally exhausted!!!

当天晚上由于白天的咖啡量摄入过多

折腾到三点才睡着

周六去了华政（彩霞有同学在那）

惊叹那才是大学嘛

是漂亮是壮观

听了他们明珠楼门口两雕像的手势的故事

一年一万四年四万

想象力忒丰富的！

差不多就是这样了

歇会~~

好想对你说【我说.好听的】

那一天是怎么遇到

关于幸福的问候

在述说相逢的奇妙

谁能给我一种解药

想要戒掉你的好

受不了思念的煎熬

看不见你才知道

你对我多么重要

失去你的微笑

我的地球不会绕

你是我全部心跳

是我追寻的目标

为你掉下的泪

随着幸福慢慢掉下